I've been studying constantly for the MCAT (Medical College Acceptance Test in North America) since I've returned early from the Olympics. It's been quite stressful as I've been out of school for so long. The time is running out and my exam date is coming soon. I'm not too worried though, as I will be able to take it again should I not be satisfied with my mark. However, that will take more studying and of course, more money.
Perhaps I'm stressed out and burnt out from studying a good 5 hours a day for the past 2 weeks, but I've come to a simple realization in how this entire process relates to life, at least my life anyway. I've seen many people so ambitious with their lives, and that is great usually, but I also see that it's that desire to go 'against all odds' and trying to do things their own way; trying to do it all themselves. I see this with many people in badminton especially, doing things on their own and trying to attain their own goals, whatever they may be. Reflecting on that, it seems like I have made the same error, as I have decided to self study for the MCAT. I know I probably wouldn't have been able to attend the classes regularly anyway, but I didn't feel like throwing away $1700.00 for a course. I can practically take the MCAT five times and have another $500 for prep materials. However, that would be the quickest fix in the shortest amount of time. Being personally instructed and guided would have saved time for sure. With the MCAT, I still have a year to pull off a satisfying mark, but there will be a lot more trial and error, most certainly of the latter if I continue to keep doing things myself. As independent as I may seem to be, I believe I have lived most of my life trying to follow people and learn from them as much as I can instead of figuring things out for myself. That way I can do more in life, instead of learning things the hard way. I would much rather spend the time in researching how things are done by finding the right resources or asking the right people, instead of getting that feeling of accomplishment one gets from solving something on their own. I know some people thrive on that feeling but it's definitely not for me.
With that said, I will do what I can this Thursday when I write my MCAT, though I do have low expectations. I don't know how much more I can cram into my head these next few days, but with my car breaking down again, the added stress is getting unbearable. It would be nice to get a few days off, after the exam before school starts... so I guess I'm looking forward to that. However, the things I've neglected to do because of studying for the MCAT will probably pile up. Oh well, such is life...
So the lesson of this blog is to consider learning from the mistakes of others, as it will save you a lot of time to do it exactly the same way and fail yourself. You can convince yourself that you may be different that the others, and if that is the case, I will tell you that every testimonial you hear from other people regarding anything should then be ignored, because it will be different for you. And if you do listen to me, it doesn't hurt to try things out once in a while, because you have to know where you stand.